Homelessness is not a state I would recommend to anyone. For the first time in my life I literally have no roof to call my own. I must admit it's by far the scariest thing that has ever happened to me - and there have been one or two scary moments of note along the way.
It's day 2 and the reality has not yet sunk in. I feel in that dream-like state often induced by shock or trauma. Nothing feels real and I know that's because I'm holding all my pent-up feelings inside, in an effort not to be overwhelmed by them. No doubt at some point I will collapse into a snot-filled puddle on the floor and cry until I can cry no more. I just hope I'm alone when it finally happens.
Do I sound self-pitying? I hope not, because the aim here isn't to bleat about the past and constantly wail 'woe is me'. I want this to be a happy blog, full of observations on my life. A witty look at how the hell I ended up in this deep pit and how the hell I'm going to climb out again!
I hope also that I'm going to get lots of feedback, interaction and comments. Please talk to me - I promise faithfully that I'll respond.
Eventually, I'll also introduce you to my books: the one I'm almost finished and the next one which is sitting quietly in the background, patiently waiting to take its turn occupying my head space.
Time now to phone the debt counsellor - I've been putting it off - the thought of baring my financial soul to a complete stranger is not one I have been relishing.......I'll let you know how it goes
I hope at least you have someone else's roof over your head.
ReplyDeleteI have had to go and have a cry before replying..I have come back and even now, I don't know what to say. There are a lot of wise words on here. People so clever and always have an answer. I know that things are not that simple. Maybe people will tell you what your should do. I do not know what you should do. I can only deal with what I can offer. And that is my love and friendship. You can ask for anything, and if it is my power to give it- I will. I hope this helps. With love. Karen x
ReplyDeleteThank you both! Friends have been kinder than I would ever have believed possible - I love them all
ReplyDeleteThank you Karen - your words made my heart swell!